I
've come to a point in my life where I realize there is not point wasting my time and energy on people or things that make me unhappy. This may sound harsh but life is too short to wake up in the morning with any regrets. You have to love the ones who treat you right and forget those who don't. Friends will come and go, it is just a part of life. You have to accept that some friends are meant to stay in your life forever and some are meant to teach you a lesson. No matter how badly you want to stay friends with someone, sometimes it's just not meant to be. And you know what? I have finally realized that it's okay to not care sometimes. I don't care about pursuing the friendship any longer, and "sometime" just so happens to be right now. I am starting to make decisions for myself and it hasn't ended well with some people, but I just have to accept that it wasn't meant to be. This was one of those "teach you a lesson" situations I talked about earlier. If they cannot understand why I made the decisions I have, I have to realize they were never a good friend to begin with. I just have to pray for them and their immaturity, that they may be able to see one day what I stand for. Its a bummer when people think that just because you are religious you think you're better than everyone else. That is the opposite of what I want. I want to be seen in the Light of God, I want to spread his love and teachings. And this is honestly the greatest lesson I have learned. I have struggled with the thoughts of "not everyone is going to like you" and "you can't please everyone" I've always repeated this to myself over and over again and Its made sense to me, but I have never been able to truly understand what it means. In order to truly accept it, you have to let go of your worry and care caused by the people that don't like you. Once you're able to let it go, it's no longer a negative aspect in your life and it won't deeply affect you. I'm not saying it's easy, trust me I've been struggling with it for years and years. It's liberating to finally realize that it's not worth my energy to fight against someone who doesn't see eye to eye with me. I know the people that care about me and love me, and those are the people that I will devote my love and energy to.
Find those people in your life and give your love to them. Thank God for them.
Lord,
Allow me to forgive those who judge me, and allow me to show through example your word. I pray for those people who are going through these situations, on both ends. I pray for the ones being rude and not understanding that they may find you. Thank you for your strength day in and day out.
